How luck am I to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard….

Heading down interstate 26 back towards the small little Georgia coastal town that I now call home, I am yet again at a loss for an explanation of how difficult yet beautiful life is. Am I writing and driving? Possibly…. But when the writers mood overwhelms your soul, and when there is so many emotions that you aren’t able to make sense out of, you just stop and write. No matter where and no matter when. Life has been so chaotic and emotionally and mentally draining the past month. The last month has consisted of moving out of an old home, and creating a new one. Full time school, a horrid respiratory virus, working insane hours- 6 days a week to fit all of my clients in before the holidays, and closing out a job that has carried me through the last 5 all too crazy hard and beautiful years. I never realized when I walked out of those doors Wednesday night for the last time, that my life will be drastically changing forever. Did I break down quietly in my new haven? Possibly… Life has been such a fun and crazy chaos that I haven’t even been able to face the fact that my life was drastically about to change nor did I or the other girls want to. I slid straight into a warm bubble bath with a glass of Chardonnay to clear my head and make sense of the feelings floating through my head as soon as I walked through the door. What I realized is that first off, I never like goodbyes or endings. They are always hard for me. I like change, I just don’t like loosing the very things that I love. And second thing is that my job, within those four walls has been my safe place and my comfort zone for going on 5 years. I worked endless nights escaping feelings and emotions that I should have been facing. I laughed harder than I ever have, and created relationships that will never be forgotten. Part of the past 5 years has involved the discovery of who I truly was and that place held a huge part of it. I came to the realization that it’s only the building that stands that is gone, it’s not the memories, the people, or the feeling of strength and growth…those will last a lifetime deep down in the soul. I’m beyond thankful for the opportunity to work at such an amazing place and to have grown more than I ever thought possible! So long Willow!